When everyone looked down on you, dissed you, no one wants to be your friend, who was the one there for you? I'm not trying to make myself seem almighty and godly now. I'm not asking you to worship me or thank me. Just fucking reflect on yourself before you decide to be blunt and truthful and tell me you don't know why and since when your attitude towards me changed. Let me tell you this- I can name every single fucking thing I dislike about you but as much as that is, I value my friendship with you and salvage it whenever it hits the rocks. Why? I believe no one is perfect, not you, not me either. But you? You hate on me and you yourself don't know the reason why? Then the problem lies with you. And when I tell you this, you act all stuck up and proud. Know I now why no one wants to be your friend. I think I was really blind to have tried salvaging and treasuring a friendship with someone who wanted to end it so much with me. Seriously, put your goddamned pride down and reflect on yourself. Ever thought of giving up on someone/something but your heart hurts so much just at the thought it, and at that moment you realise how much that person/that thing means to you? Continuing from the emo post from 1 dec, on 20th dec, I BOUGHT THE TICKETS TO SS3! ^^
That day was a really memorable one, we failed the 1st time cause the internet failed on us suddenly, and the time to buy tickets has run out. We were so so so devasted. The 2nd time, Twisty forgot to choose the seats we want, but we got in, so we just went ahead to buy although the seats are not at the area we want and they're far far back. Better not getting any tickets at all right? :D

Happy like a mad girl. Counting down everyday to 30th Jan 2011! As much as I want to, it's really hard to continue having a blog which no one visits ):

Seriously emo like shit now. I didn't managed to get any SS3 tickets no matter how hard I tried to. I got in once but I can only buy 1 ticket which I gave up in the end. What's the point of getting just 1 ticket when I wanna go to the concert with my friends? Who would go with me if I bought that 1 ticket? ):

Trying so hard to get tickets online. But I have to bid for them. I doubt I'll be the highest bidder though. There're just too many crazy ELFs who are willing to pay so much more than me. ):

Stress from my new home & my P3 is driving me nuts.
Everyday when I get home from school, my mum wants me to do things related to me new home- search online for wall feature designs, choose material for the cabinets, closets, choose the paints for the home etc etc. & the list goes on.
I need to do my work. Like seriously.
& the worst thing? My mum thinks it's easy to do a project, she thinks I'm using P3 as an excuse.
Hey c'mon, if given a choice, I'd rather not take my P3 and have all the time in the world to care about my new home k?
You're really stressing me out.
Please gimme a break ):



Time to spazz!!!
SS3 seating plan is out! Raz & I are planning to get tickets in Arena. Praying hard that I can get the tickets! ^^
But stupid ocbc haven't send me my pin number for my debit card! Grr! They better send it to me fast! If not, I'm so gonna scream at them, period.

Back to the topic on SS3. I'm seriously very very very excited for it cause never have I, in my dreams, thought that 슈주 will ever come here for a concert! I'm so super happy and excited that I can finally see my beloved 슈주 & the sapphire blue ocean! ♥

Before I end the post, I wanna talk about how I feel being an ELF. It's gonna be a super long one =X

Firstly, I don't mean to be cocky, but I really am very happy to be an ELF since '06, even before the 슈주 craze started.

Before getting to know 슈주, I've always thought that fandom is all about just liking the artiste's songs, liking them for their personality, their programmes, their dance etc. But after getting to know 슈주, I came to learn that fandom is more than just that. Being an ELF is something I am not afraid to tell the world. Being an ELF is like being in a big family, not just among fans, but also with the 13 amazing guys.

Though I don't chase after them and stuff like that, I am confident to say that my love for them is not any lesser than anyone out there who chases after them etc. (I'm not saying anything bad towards those who chase them)

I admit that I really did changed a lot as the years passed by being an ELF.
I became someone who is willing to give my everything just for them.
I changed from someone who used to bash people who critise 슈주, to someone who doesn't give a damn about those people. Not only because I am an anti of another group. I've come to learn that I can't control what the world thinks, but I can control what I wanna say/do to those people.
I became a fan who is willing to protect 13 guys whom I have not met before.

Many may say that this sentence "If one day, the world betrays Super Junior, ELFs will betray the whole world too" by ELF is immature & pure craziness. But some people will not understand the bond between 슈주 & ELF.

They always say that without ELF, there won't be 슈주. But rather than this, I feel that without 슈주, there won't be ELF.

I love 슈주 not just for who they are, but also for the strong brotherly bond & love they have between them. I love them for even putting the happiness of ELF above themselves.
I love them because of their love for ELF.

Though Hankyung oppa has left unofficially, I have a feeling that he'll never return again. I used to have selfish thoughts of wanting him to come back again. But if we really love him, we should support him & shouldn't we want the best for him? So if he would be happier & healthier after leaving SM, why not? I just want the best for him.

韩庚哥哥，虽然我非常不舍得你离开，可是我知道你离开以后也许会过得比你在SM的时候开心，健康，自在。所以我再也没有奢求你会来了。只要你开心，我也心满意足。所以，你一定要记得每天过得开心，照顾自己的身体。这能让我放心地，开心地看你离开。。。
我希望你永远不会忘记永远支持你，爱着你的ELF和你在Superjunior里的哥哥，弟弟门。。

Kangin oppa! 슈주 & ELF miss you a lot! Please take care of yourself in the army, & we really can't wait to see you back on stage with the rest of 슈주!

Kibum oppa, I feel regret for kinda disliking you for not being involved in 슈주's activities since 3jib. I know you have your own difficulties, though you never said anything. I really hope to see you back on stage with the rest of your hyungs soon. You know we miss you!

슈주 모든의 오빠 너무 사랑해! ♥ Class was awesome today. I learnt tons of things and had loads of fun! ^^

Tomorrow it would be my group's turn to present. Apparently, I think there's something wrong with my slide, but we can't edit them anymore. So I should just accept fate when I get questioned tomorrow?
Aja aja hwaiting! ^^